No Fear

I have no fear,
I'd love to say.
but what I fear,
is here to stay.

    I have talked of fear, with all my friends.
    and have long realized the idiocy of revealing your "worst fear"
    To tell is foolish, for they want to know,
    so they can taunt you, hurt you, or make them laugh.

And so, I say, I have no fear.
To prove it, I will do anything.
Jump from planes,
ski the hardest runs.
stand before crowds,
to entertain.
All eyes on me,
I never sweat.

    No one knows, that I too have fear.
    I fear heights.
    I fear pain.
    I fear crowds.
    I fear Attention.
    When the crowd laughs
    My heart stands still.
    When my dreams are read,
    I stand naked before you.
    Ashamed, but always smiling.

I do all these things,
to prove I have none.
I fear the loss of control,
I fear being made to do them.
   
    So I do them all, everyday.
    I do them on my own.
    I smile, I clown,
    I tell stories, I charm.
    I write my darkest thoughts.
    I write of fantastic lives.

I have no fear,
I'd love to say.
but what I fear most,
is every day.